Do work son.

I don't think I can name any other place but work that keeps me so occupied &keeps my mind off things. Although I know I need a new job badly, I don't think I'd ever find a manager I can easily talk to and co-workers that I can easily get along with! I'd so miss it. So I don't think I'm looking for a new job right now(: By the way, I can't wait 'til school starts! I love being busy rather than staying home watching tv all day! Ugh. Hahah. I guess that's all for now, I'm watching Monsters In Law!

Well damn.

Hahaahah I just saw Trisheezy's blog and we had the same "format" for "letters" to our mothers. I swear I didn't see that part. I actually wrote mine on a piece of paper first. But anyway........

That's all I wanted to say. Goodbye &Goodnight.

BULLSHIT

Dear Mom,
Since I can barely talk to you and can barely see you anytime, I'm writing to you. All I hear right now is you and Justin yelling back and forth to each other and he's making me so angry. Mom, you need to understand that we have to find a way to make him learn his lesson. I think the way he kicked out that fagget the first time was BULLSHIT. I think they set it up because after he kicked that fagget out, he changed the story and said he didn't steal Aaron's flashdrive. He said that you and that fagget found it on the driveway. That is BULLSHIT because the flashdrive was in my room ready for me to use the next day. How did it get in the driveway? I think they set it up so he can pretend to need a car to look for that fagget when really he just wanted the battery back in his car. Everything he does is BULLSHIT. The next week I see that fagget again?!!! He is a LIAR. Who else would steal from us?!!!! Everyone in this damn house had something stolen from them already. You know what me and dad did today? We changed our door locks in OUR ROOMS! THE LOCK TO OUR ROOM!!! HOw ridiculous does it sound to change locks in your own home because of a FAMILY MEMBER??!!! I don't feel safe in my OWN HOME. That's all Justin brings here... Pain and anger. On top of that, the way he just spoke to you right now is RUDE and I can't believe you take that from him. Out of all people. You were the one that said no one, especially your kids, could ever talk to you in that way or else they would get slapped. And mom, you proved yourself wrong. You're letting Justin walk all over you like a rug. He's taking advantage of you in whatever way he can. All for what!? NOTHING. What does he do for you? Oh, he signed up for classes? NOPE. Oh he has a job? NOPE. He does nothing around this damn house. Don't get me wrong. He is YOUR son and I know you're worried but the more you let him do what he wants, the more he will get out of hand. That fagget friend of his will be back tmrw, I promise you that. Call the cops on that fagget the next time you see him because the same routine WILL HAPPEN. I want to punch BOTH OF THEM in the face. They both bring nothing but trouble here. I'm sorry I've never seemed appreciative of my surroundings but I am, Mom. Thank you for this house you let me live in and for the food on the table. Thank you for my education as well. I promise by the time I get a higher paying job, I'll return the favor and i'll get out of your home. I'm trying to earn my own cash to pay for my own things. I ever offered dad money to pay for my snacks for work everyday. I don't ever want to become like Justin and I never will. I HATE HIM and he is NOT my brother. He is slowly breaking this family apart and I hope he realizes it one day before he goes to jail. I do not ever want to talk to him and I seriously can't wait to leave this house. Clearly, he has put friends before family and I don't respect him in any way. He will pay for what the fuck he did. I hope his hard headed self learns before it's too late. BULLSHIT.

-Arlene

What's another word for angry?

My family is DIS FUNK SHUN NAL. I hate it I hate it I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!

Thanks bro. I hope you know how much you hurt me. I hope you know how much you hurt mom. &dad? Pft. You're so hardheaded and I hope you read this one day.

Depressing. Agh. Not in the mood.


Hey, there's a lock on my door now. Like i'd be ANY safer than I already.... AM NOT.

Begin each day as if it were on purpose.

Don't expect me to write in here everyday. Just sometimes when MySpace gets boring. HAHAHA. But gad, it's been ridiculous since I last wrote in here. I'm officially full time at work now and I come home everyday wanted to sleep. I guess I can't complain. Waking up to the sun barely rising is beautiful. My new manager at work is hilarious. I don't think I can ask for anything else right now. Breakin' necks, cashin' checks and my bestfriend found her, what I believe, a keeper!(((:Yes, that was for MamaTin. HAhaha. Everything with Honey is just fine. Just passed our 10th &I don't mind being away from him most days. Missing him is ridiculous. It is now June meaning July is just a month away. You know what that means.... Arleezy &Trisheezy's birfdays! By the way, our store won a free "fill the fridge" day and my manager bought 300 wingstop wings for tmrw. Tell me that doesn't sound delish!?!?!! I'm pretty juiced. I also got the new blackberry 8900. It's pretty sick. I'm in love with it. Not much else new. Just another day &it starts all over again tmrw. Until next time!

Aaron Francisco, that was a very cute blog. Thanks for the reassurance.

UP IS SUCHA CUTE MOVIE! IT'S A "MUST SEE"!! *CROSS MY HEART!

Self Therapy at its finest.

I'm pretty independent and simple. I'm not saying I'm fully independent because my parents still support me in every way possible. But I'm saying that I don't need a man to spoil me with all the finer things. In fact, I love spoiling whoever I'm with. But I've finally realized that it's so hard for me to loosen up and not let my pride take over. Giving someone 100% of me fell through after the many times I've tried and made it work with someone who wouldn't give me 100% of them self. Now that I've found someone who gives me the time of day, understands me through every situation, thinks of me as his whole world, respects me as I'd want to be respected, and has been accepted by my family, I try to find all the small cracks just because nothing is ever that perfect to me. &I understand that I'm a little pain in the ass all the time but it's because relationships have never worked out for me. You learn and move on and I've learned and moved on. But what I learned from my very first serious relationship is that working hard does not get you anywhere if you're the only one working at it. I have never been fully committed since and I feel like I'm the bitch everytime I feel like something isn't working out. My pride is so high because I'm not understanding at all. I'll fight over small things because those are what hurt the most. I don't give out my life to just anyone and I don't plan to anytime soon. I've never been the type to talk about my feelings or problems outloud and if I appreciate something I don't show it the way I guess I'm suppose to. It's not that easy at all. Buying material things is easy. I guess that's what I've always replaced reassurance and appreciation with...

It's so LIVE right now.
Why can't the weather be breezy?

Lesson up.

"If you overthink too much, you'll lose a whole lot of opportunities."
I really learn from Tough Love. Hahahah!